Too Proud [or Stupid] to ask for Help??

Well, hello again friends. I was talking about wanting to be independent and what happened? While trying to put up a bathroom cabinet I dropped it, thus breaking the mirror! All I needed was someone to help hold it in place. But, of course, I couldn't wait until there was someone who could help me. I had to try to do it by myself. Maybe independence isn't always the best way to go. Speaking of independence makes me think of shooting a gun. There is a quarry near my home where I can go shooting. Now if I could just borrow a gun! Does anyone have one to loan me? LOL. Really, I am going to ask my son-in-law Jo... to take me out shooting. He says that I need to have a gun...if only to shoot Yogi for the meat. Sorry, Jo... but unless Yogi threatens me or my dog, I will not shoot him OR eat him. But I would not mind going hunting with my daughter F... she goes every year with her husbands family while her husband stays home with the kids. Her husband hunts with a bow which is at a different time then gun hunting. He will go out during the day for deer or elk. We also have moose around here but I don't know if there is a hunting season for moose. I think that there is actually a bear season though. Until I moved here I never even thought about hunting seasons. I used to spend my time playing [sometimes working] on my computer. Today I spent hours on my computer. The stupid thing kept freezing-up and I would have to start over again. How do you spell frustration? I spell it like this: C O M P U T E R! Yesterday it snowed at my house. Today a little bit of snow is still sticking in some areas. It was 16 degrees this am and in the afternoon it was 28 degrees. I have been trying to keep the fire in the wood stove going all day. It seems to be either too cold or too hot in here. But at least my little chihuahua isn't shaking anymore. I have a cute little chihuahua, who has the personality of a wild animal. She will lick me and jump all over me, wiggling her little behind and making u-turns but with other people she barks, growls and nips at their heels. There is a rumor that she is much nicer and calmer if I am not around. She even allows my granddaughters to carry her around if I am gone. But as soon as I come home she mysteriously turns back into a monster. Am I so pathetic that a tiny 3 lb dog thinks that she has to protect me? I call her "sweetie". But most people call her "Rosita" or "Rosie". No one except me [and my grandchildren] think she is a sweetie. I have another sweetie in my life too. My cat, "Ginger" who is part Siamese. She has blue eyes, and white with dark tiger lines and a raccoon-ring tail. Why name her "Ginger" you ask? It's a long and boring story so I'll spare you the details. "Ginger" came to live with us when she was only half the size of "Sweetie". She is now over twice "Sweetie's" size. They both love to snuggle under the blankets with me at night. They are the cuddliest, smartest, sweetest, and warmest bed partners I've ever had!! [Sorry to my ex if he should hear about or read this]. Why did I move way up here? This is also a long story and one that I need to think about before I can share it. I want to assure my family and friends that I love it here. Of course, I might have a different opinion after my first winter. Some may ask, where is here? Here is in the country near Clark Fork, ID. There is a forest outside my back door and a gravel road in front of my large front yard. The front yard has a fenced garden, fruit trees, pine trees and lots of grass. Spring will be a time of extreme activity! I spent the summer on my hands and knees, planting, weeding, and harvesting the garden. Jo.. & F.. (and I) harvested tomatoes, corn, beans, peas, pumpkins, (the zucchini died, but we were able to get plenty from other people at church), carrots, onions, lettuce, spinach, broccoli and potatoes (after all, this is Idaho). We had such bounty that, even with canning and freezing, we were able to take our extra vegetables to the farmers market. I have to admit that F.. did the most and the hardest work. They {I did a little with them) have spent time this fall cutting, loading, delivering, and splitting wood for three homes and a business. I really appreciate them getting wood for me for the winter. I really appreciate them. Jo.. is an amazing worker and so are his parents and my daughter F. I have learned a new word from them. DILIGENCE. Diligence is a new concept for me, I am sorry to have to admit. I have been reading a book "Preach my Gospel". In this book, on page 121, it defines diligence as...steady, consistent, earnest and energetic effort. It is to work persistently and with great effort and care. Also to work effectively and with efficiency, using my free will to do good things, and to continue until I have done all that I can, even when I am tired. The way to be diligent is 1) to focus on things of importance, 2) avoid wasting time, 3) pray for guidance and strength, 4) plan regularly and effectively and 5)avoid distractions of mind and/or body. My son-in-law and his family are the most diligent people I have ever met. They do everything with full force and enthusiasm. I doubt that anyone could keep up with them. My daughter has learned from them since she married into their family almost 10 years ago. I am trying to become more diligent. Since I moved here June 1st, I have lost 33 lbs. I have increased my activity level by kayaking, walking, gardening, and playing with my grandchildren. I have also made it a rule to only eat when hungry and stop eating before I'm stuffed. I do not miss those extra pounds! I need to find ways to stay active in the winter. Snowshoeing or alpine skiing sound like fun. There is also a ski resort within a reasonable distance from Sandpoint. I hope to go with my granddaughters [J, B, and R] and take lessons with them. It has been over thirty years since I took skiing lessons on Mt. Hood. I will need lessons, especially to learn how to get up from a fall! It has been delightful being with you tonight. You make my living alone less lonely.